Profile gothiccobra: We all die in the end

Basic Information Tell us a bit about yourself.

I Can Speak English
I Would Describe Myself As "We all die in the end, it's just a matter of how and when." There have been times when my faith has been shattered beyond full healing. I walk the land scarred, filled with rage, pain, and regret. I miss believing in the future, and contemplating and what was to come, but the vision has been lost, and I am blind to its once glorious outlook. I constantly find myself at a crossroads that I never would've thought in my wildest nightmares would've happened to me. My struggle has been difficult to bear to say the least, and my patience for it ran out on me so long ago, that I wonder, "Why do I still attempt to fight? What am I fighting for anymore? Why after so many failures do I attempt to find even one endeavor in which I may prevail and succeed?" I struggle to find logic and reason within my own madness, let alone to attempt to understand the insanity of this thing we call life, otherwise known as "the human condition". It has been so long since I have felt like I was a part of life on this little blue ball we call Earth, yet I have been cast out for so long, that there are days I wake up feeling like I don't belong, like maybe the chance to live my life the way I have imagined it lies in another corner of this thing we call our universe. I hoped for a happy life, I've asked the spirits for that, I have even asked for just the slightest bit of guidance in the proper direction that would help me find the path that would lead me to that on my own, yet every path I take seems to clash with my morals and values, or makes me repeat certain parts of the path over and over again to where not only am I no longer moving forward, but I'm just running in flipping circles, chasing my fluffy tail. I want my mind back, I want to think clearly again, to no longer be blinded by the dark forces of life. Sometimes, it feels safer for me to just hide in the dark, to not expose myself to the world. Other times, it feels like there must be some reason for all of us to have gone through life as we all have, perhaps to prepare us for something beyond any of us. Like so many who have come before me, I wish to know and find my destiny, yet I also worry, even fear the possible outcomes that could come from even the simplest of choices, to the life changing events that are still to come.
Sign Scorpio

Appearance & Situation What's your present situation? Describe your appearance.

My Body Type Is Muscular
My Height Is 6' 0 (1.83 m)
My Eyes Are Hazel
My Ethnicity Is Caucasian
My Marital Situation Is Single
I Have Kids No
I Want Kids Not Sure
My Best Feature Is Eyes
Body Art Scarred
My Hair Is Dark Brown
I Have One Or More Of These Dog
Willing To Relocate No

Status What do you do?

My Education Level Is Some College
My Current Employment Status Is Student
My Speciality Is Entertainment / Media
My Job Title Is Audio Technician
I Make This Much In A Year Less Than $14,999USD
I Live Alone
At Home All Is Calm
I'm A Smoker Yes - But Non Tobacco
I Drink Yes - Socially

Personality How do you act? What are your tastes?

Back In High School, I Was A Outcast
My Social Behavior Is Anti-social, Comedic, Dark, Flirtatious, Friendly, Observant, Reserved, Shy, Strange, Fire Starter
My Interest And Hobbies Are Arts & Crafts, Camping, Computers, Cooking, Fishing / Hunting, Internet, Games, Gardening, Learning, Movies, Music, Religion / Spirituality, Theater, Travel, Tv
My Idea Of A Great Time Is Hanging Out With Friends, Going To A Concert, Playing Dress-up, Playing Video Games, Relaxing, Sleeping, Staying At Home, The Movies, Tv
An Ideal First Date Would Be My idea of an ideal first date is just a fantasy that clouds my vision of the reality of the situation. If I could, I would probably go overboard, offering what I would think of the perfect date, a movie, dinner, conversating in the hopes to learn about one another, finding out what makes her different from anyone and everyone else, and to hopefully make plans for more dates in the future.
I've Always Wanted To Try I have experienced many things in my short time being here, I honestly don't know what else I'd like to try, except possibly living a good life.
My Friends Describe Me As Being Friendly, Cool, Obscure, Goofy, A Flirt, I Don't Have Any Friends

Views Views on life.

My Religion Is Other
I Attend Services Never
My Political Views Are Libertarian
My Goal In Life Is To find at least one thing that I can do well enough to earn a meager living, to be able to provide for myself, and whoever dares to brave a possible future with me. I want to find something in life worth fighting for again.
My Kind Of Humor Is Clever, Friendly, Goofy, Slapstick, Raunchy

Taste What do you like?

On Tv, I Always Watch Cartoons, Documentaries, Movies
When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Family, Animation, Horror, Thriller, Adult
When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To Metal, Punk, Rock
When I Read, I Always Read Ancient, Anthology, Comic, Computers, Erotica, Fantasy, Fiction, History, Horror, Humor, Instructional, Mathematics, Music, Mystery, Nature, Philosophy, Supernatural, Reference, Satire, Science Fiction, Technical, I Don't Like Reading
My Idea Of Fun Is Fun? Who has fun anymore? Didn't fun die with the Y2K scare, and the turn of the millenium? Even when I try to have fun, some soul-****ing vampyre is always out on the prowl to thwart any fun I might have.

Looking for What are you looking for in your soulmate?

What Do You Find Attractive? Empathy, Flirtatiousness, Good Looks, Great Skills, Humor, Intelligence, Sensitivity, Thoughtfullness, Wit
What Do You Look For? Someone who sees me for me, someone who sees through the fortified defenses of my heart and soul. Someone who will be there when I need them, as will always do what I can to be there for them. Someone who will support me when no one else will. Someone who will help me brainstorm when troubleshooting my problems in life. Someone I can agree with on any number of subjects, as long as we can both validate our positions and views on the matter.
What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking? Date, Intimate, Committed