Profile h.p.lovecraft: I am Lovecraft

Basic Information Tell us a bit about yourself.

I Would Describe Myself As I cannot even hint what it was like, for it was a compound of all that is unclean, uncanny, unwelcome, abnormal, and detestable. It was the ghoulish shade of decay, antiquity, and dissolution; the putrid, dripping eidolon of unwholesome revelation, the awful baring of that which the merciful earth should always hide. God knows it was not of this world - or no longer of this world - yet to my horror I saw in its eaten-away and bone-revealing outlines a leering, abhorrent travesty on the human shape; and in its mouldy, disintegrating apparel an unspeakable quality that chilled me even more.

I was almost paralysed, but not too much so to make a feeble effort towards flight; a backward stumble which failed to break the spell in which the nameless, voiceless monster held me. My eyes bewitched by the glassy orbs which stared loathsomely into them, refused to close; though they were mercifully blurred, and showed the terrible object but indistinctly after the first shock. I tried to raise my hand to shut out the sight, yet so stunned were my nerves that my arm could not fully obey my will. The attempt, however, was enough to disturb my balance; so that I had to stagger forward several steps to avoid falling. As I did so I became suddenly and agonizingly aware of the nearness of the carrion thing, whose hideous hollow breathing I half fancied I could hear. Nearly mad, I found myself yet able to throw out a hand to ward off the foetid apparition which pressed so close; when in one cataclysmic second of cosmic nightmarishness and hellish accident my fingers touched the rotting outstretched paw of the monster beneath the golden arch.

I did not shriek, but all the fiendish ghouls that ride the nightwind shrieked for me as in that same second there crashed down upon my mind a single fleeting avalanche of soul-annihilating memory. I knew in that second all that had been; I remembered beyond the frightful castle and the trees, and recognized the altered edifice in which I now stood; I recognized, most terrible of all, the unholy abomination that stood leering before me as I withdrew my sullied fingers from its own.

But in the cosmos there is balm as well as bitterness, and that balm is nepenthe. In the supreme horror of that second I forgot what had horrified me, and the burst of black memory vanished in a chaos of echoing images. In a dream I fled from that haunted and accursed pile, and ran swiftly and silently in the moonlight. When I returned to the churchyard place of marble and went down the steps I found the stone trap-door immovable; but I was not sorry, for I had hated the antique castle and the trees. Now I ride with the mocking and friendly ghouls on the night-wind, and play by day amongst the catacombs of Nephren-Ka in the sealed and unknown valley of Hadoth by the Nile. I know that light is not for me, save that of the moon over the rock tombs of Neb, nor any gaiety save the unnamed feasts of Nitokris beneath the Great Pyramid; yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage.

For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men. This I have known ever since I stretched out my fingers to the abomination within that great gilded frame; stretched out my fingers and touched a cold and unyielding surface of polished glass.
Sign Virgo

Appearance & Situation What's your present situation? Describe your appearance.

My Body Type Is Athletic
My Height Is 5' 10 (1.78 m)
My Eyes Are Hazel
My Ethnicity Is Caucasian
My Hair Is Black
Willing To Relocate No

Status What do you do?

My Current Employment Status Is Full-time
I Live With Roomate(s)
I'm A Smoker No
I Drink Yes - One Or Two

Personality How do you act? What are your tastes?

Back In High School, I Was A Quiet One
My Social Behavior Is Reserved, Shy, Observant, Anti-social, Friendly, Flirtatious, Dark, Strange
My Interest And Hobbies Are Exercising, Reading, Music, Movies, Internet, Games, Clubbing / Bar Hopping, Family, Dining, Religion / Spirituality, Travel, Cooking, Cars, Camping
My Idea Of A Great Time Is Trying New Things

Views Views on life.

My Religion Is Other
My Kind Of Humor Is Clever, Dry / Sarcastic, Obscure, Raunchy

Taste What do you like?

On Tv, I Always Watch News, Cartoons, Documentaries, Situation Comedies, Movies
When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A Science Fiction, Documentary, Family, Horror, Thriller
When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To Rap, Rock, Metal, Electronic, Pop, Reggae, Gospel, Punk
When I Read, I Always Read Ancient, Anthology, Computers, Fantasy, Health, History, Horror, Nature, Philosophy, Political, Religious, Science, Science Fiction, Technical

Looking for What are you looking for in your soulmate?

What Do You Find Attractive? Intelligence, Good Looks, Humor, Empathy, Sensitivity, Wit, Thoughtfullness
What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking? Intimate