Profile crowdraven: look into the dark to find the light

Basic Information Tell us a bit about yourself.

I Can Speak English, Spanish
I Would Describe Myself As I've always found it hard to truly describe myself, although I know myself quite well sometimes I remain a mystery even to myself. I've always been used to spending time by myself, so I guess that makes me a loner, I dont really mind loneliness because I'm so used to it, but at times I simply cannot bare it. I'm never really comfortable out in public around people I dont know, and I am always afraid to get close to people because I simply dont trust anyone. I am a very private person, I tend to always keep things to myself. I am reluctant and reclusive even to those closest to me. I am a misserable bastart most of the time which is something people dont understant about me, but its not that I want to be, its just what I'm used to, and I tend to cling to things that I am most used to because they are things that have become a part of me, like an organ or a limb, I simply cannot live without them. I have my bad moods and good moods just like everyone else, but my bad moods are so much worst because of my anger problem. Most of the time I am calm and collected, cold as well as intelectual and calculating, I am a slow thinker and I always think deeply about everything. I do like to laugh though, and I am quite the commedian and even act flamboyant but mostly only around my cousin and my sister because I am comfortable enough around them that it allows me to be that way. I'd like to think that I have a strong sense of right and wrong, and I've always been like that ever since I was a child which has made me headstrong and difficult, especially when I contradict people about things I beleive are true about how they can truly behave which is something no one likes to hear especially when its something bad. I am dirrect and to the point but alot of times I have difficulties explaining what it is I feel. I can also describe myself as a dark person. I tend to cling to darkness alot, only because it makes me feel comfortable, I have always found rest and solace within it. I am still young and finding out new things about myself. I am nowhere near perfect but I know that with time I will become a better person, a better man. Wisdom is something that always guides me, I am a seeker of knowladge and I am learning much by experience everyday.
Sign Leo

Appearance & Situation What's your present situation? Describe your appearance.

My Body Type Is Slim
My Height Is 5' 10 (1.78 m)
My Eyes Are Brown
My Ethnicity Is Hispanic/latino
My Marital Situation Is Single
I Have Kids No
I Want Kids Yes
My Best Feature Is Smile
Body Art Pierced... But Only Ear(s)
My Hair Is Black
I Have One Or More Of These Cat, No pets
Willing To Relocate Yes

Status What do you do?

My Education Level Is High School Diploma
My Current Employment Status Is Full-time
I Live With Roomate(s)
I'm A Smoker Yes - Socially
I Drink Yes - Often

Personality How do you act? What are your tastes?

Back In High School, I Was A Quiet One
My Social Behavior Is Shy, Observant, Anti-social, Comedic, Flirtatious, Dark, Strange
My Interest And Hobbies Are Arts & Crafts, Learning, Music, Movies, Internet, Games, Family, Dining, Cooking, Cars, Computers
My Idea Of A Great Time Is Staying At Home, The Movies, Relaxing, Clubbing / Bars, Drinking, Playing Video Games, Going To A Concert
An Ideal First Date Would Be Go to dinner, prefferably Chineese buffet, then a movie, take a walk in a cementary while conversating, find some attraction, and at the end of the night if we can still stand each other plan for a second date. Afterwards make sure to get ya home safe, and end it with a good nights kiss, depending on how we feel. :)
I've Always Wanted To Try I'm open minded to anything really.
My Friends Describe Me As Being Friendly, Someone They Want To Be, Cool, Obscure

Views Views on life.

My Religion Is Other
My Political Views Are I Don't Like Politics
My Goal In Life Is To find some sort of happines and solace, to find a place were I truly belong, and find someone that will love me for everything that I am. To find out what I was meant for, my purpose. Have at least one child within the next decade, I beleive a man's greatest test in life is to be a good father.
My Kind Of Humor Is Clever, Dry / Sarcastic, Friendly, Goofy, Obscure, Sadistic

Taste What do you like?

On Tv, I Always Watch Cartoons, Movies, Reality Shows, Re-runs
When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Romance, Drama, Horror, Thriller
When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To Rock, Metal, Industrial
When I Read, I Always Read Biography, Comic

Looking for What are you looking for in your soulmate?

What Do You Find Attractive? Intelligence, Good Looks, Humor, Empathy, Boldness, Spontaneity, Flirtatiousness, Wit, Thoughtfullness
What Do You Look For? I look for someone with alot of the same qualities as me, someone with similar likes and dislikes. Someone I can spend all my time and energy on and wont be bothered to spend most of their time with me, but most important, they must be loyal and trustworthy. Once I fall in love I am not afraid of it, I need someone who will allow themselves to fall completely in love, I need that someone to fight for it and never give up on it, and a little possessiveness dosent hurt either. I need passion and commtement, which does not necessarely mean marrige. I am very passionate myself, I am the type that would give up everything and die a thousand times for the one I love. Quoting Marilyn Manson, "I want to be eaten alive by somebody I was in love with." Meaning I want that person to take all of me, to take everything that I am and embrace it. Love is all or nothing, and thats the only way I want it.
What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking? Committed