Profile azuremyst: Somewhere lost amongst a galaxy of stars

Basic Information Tell us a bit about yourself.

I Can Speak English
I Would Describe Myself As "Is it worth a try? Or will I drown, what better way to die-- in search of life."

"You float in a million lights, but the one you seek is not there. You fight in a million fights, but it's yourself you cannot bear..."-Mind.in.a.Box

I am vivid, silent endless, undone.
Creation timeless as fallen rain.
My love, pale dusk, which coats your earthbound heart.
As much as droplets hovering unnoticed along the drain.
My eyes burn dark, as much as yours
Sometimes I almost believe we're the same.
And gone are such trenches deep, diving lines.
Implacable liquid substances as that which we restrain.
Absolution, a promise I most stubbornly rebute.
Else cultivate in gutters, letting dreams grow as mold.
Taking pleasure in knowing if such can kill me, I must still be alive.
Otherwise dead to a sporeless world grown cold.
I am earthen alike, and yet as heavenly a teardrop,
Plummeting fast through darkest lands.
Longing to find salvation in silken, moonlit streams,
And not slip weightlessly, like water through your hands. ---Me

Okay, now onto the less poetic, more down to earth jargin.

This is not the first time I have submitted an online profile of myself, but it never seems to get any easier, and so I will try my best to be as honest as I can.

I am tall. 5'11" to be exact. I find this detail to be important because most men aren't used to this. I am also plus sized, which is of equal importance because when you put these two physical characteristics together you get a very shy and self-conscious individual who is more than a little afraid of this online setting, due to the fear of being rejected upon first "real" meeting.
However, Mind.In.A.Box once wrote that "It is the fear that takes you down..." and so I have learned to love myself, and believe that perhaps I shouldn't be so afraid anymore.

As you can tell, I like to write. I consider it therapy of sorts; a means by which I can take the darkness and make it something beautiful. While my life is peppered with gothic undertones and habits, I would not consider myself as solely that, nor anything which can so simply be described in mere sentences or even paragraphs. I am shy, but outgoing and boisterous once you get to know me. I love music, concert events, and a man who isn't afraid of the effects of a little eyeliner and lipstick. I do not so much want a "boyfriend, " as much as I want a companion who understands me and might also feel the same. Come what may, perhaps it's worth a try?
Sign Capricorn

Appearance & Situation What's your present situation? Describe your appearance.

My Body Type Is Big And Beautiful
My Height Is 5' 11 (1.8 m)
My Eyes Are Brown
My Ethnicity Is Caucasian
My Marital Situation Is Single
I Have Kids No
I Want Kids Yes
My Best Feature Is Smile
Body Art Pierced... But Only Ear(s)
My Hair Is Dark Brown
I Have One Or More Of These Cat
Willing To Relocate No

Status What do you do?

My Education Level Is College Degree
My Current Employment Status Is Part-time
My Speciality Is Art / Music / Literature
My Job Title Is Telecommunications
I Make This Much In A Year $15,000USD To $29,999USD
I Live With Roomate(s)
At Home All Is Calm
I'm A Smoker No
I Drink Yes - One Or Two

Personality How do you act? What are your tastes?

Back In High School, I Was A Outcast
My Social Behavior Is Shy, Friendly, Dark, Strange
My Interest And Hobbies Are Arts & Crafts, Reading, Music, Clubbing / Bar Hopping, Dancing, Dining, Theater, Travel, Gardening, Playing Cards
My Idea Of A Great Time Is Staying At Home, Trying New Things, Relaxing, Reading A Book, Playing Dress-up, Playing Video Games, Going To A Concert, Going To A Museum
An Ideal First Date Would Be Excellent conversation and the overall feeling of ease, for this is what makes the evening memorable, no matter the setting. But to be fair, I enjoy going for walks among natural settings, chatting over coffee, and going to concerts( especially if they are of the electronic persuasion. )
I've Always Wanted To Try I will not know the answer to this question until it presents itself.
My Friends Describe Me As Being Friendly, Obscure

Views Views on life.

My Religion Is Spiritual But Not Religious
I Attend Services Never
My Political Views Are Democrat
My Goal In Life Is I would like to somehow make a lasting impression on those around me. Life is short, and I not only long to be loved, but also to be understood, so that I may be remembered always.

My goal in life is to not only write and publish a book, but write and publish a GREAT book ( or two. )
My Kind Of Humor Is Raunchy

Taste What do you like?

On Tv, I Always Watch News, Movies, Sports
When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A Science Fiction, Comedy, Animation
When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To Electronic, Industrial, Dance
When I Read, I Always Read Fantasy, Satire, Science Fiction
My Idea Of Fun Is I'll tell you when I am experiencing it, as I am still figuring it all out...

Looking for What are you looking for in your soulmate?

What Do You Find Attractive? Intelligence, Humor, Sensitivity, Boldness, Oddities, Thoughtfullness
What Do You Look For? I search for someone who shimmers like threads of sunlight against the tepid ripples of a muddied pond. A dynamic individual who posses a quiet intelligence beyond his years and isn't afraid to let it show when in the company of someone he trusts. He must believe in the power of love, and remain faithful to it, beyond all else. For love in itself is a dying art which, like the finest of porcelains, must be preserved.
What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking? Friend, Date, Intimate, Committed